Centers of Gravity

I missed a few posts, but heck. After getting the wind knocked out of me, I'm probably better so there might be a bit less emo posts now. I've changed the music on the blog, but i guess it's still stormy and chaotic. But, that's my mind. It's very dark? I might be able to get around that. Finishing my book will close everything that has been overpoweringly - overpowering. I hope so.

Anyway, this is post 81.

Hellheim

Hellheim is the old Norse for Hell. That's actually where we got English word 'hell'. I took a nice dive into something not quite HH, but it's still nerve-wracking. I am not given to easy cowardice, but this takes the cake. At least, that adrenaline rush is over, as of yesterday evening. Yay, but i still need a miracle for tests.

I keep looking, yet reality urges this: nothing's there.

I will... sigh.yeap, i guess that statement's correct. i'm as usual, being hunted (sorta). even with the 'sorta', i think it sucks to be 'hunted'. like a fugitive. ..... well. it's always been fun to break those rules. i'm trapped, as usual.... i could be trying to save myself. Yes, i could. but what then am i doing here, blogging away and staring off into space, wasting time while the gestapo isafter me?

Why..?

It is because I choose to be.



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i'm sick of this.

I can't do anything here; I'm helpless with regards. Fascist gestapos loot the spoils of war, raping and pillaging. Ugly teeth in misshapen faces give their snarls of relish as they capitulate, on the weakness that is me. woe is me, woe is us all. where is the hope that kept us going? where was the promised victory? is it still a long way to go? the sky cries as its freedom is forcibly concealed, dusting out the worn out, dry hope in us. may swords and daggers fly; may darkness ever depart; may the lovers love forever more; may the new dawn show from the east; and may it all, it all be forgotten.

Symphony in the Moonlight

There's been quite abit of inspiration these days. Lovely music to listen to, maybe that's why. but as ever, the storm of emotions. eh, doesnt help much if i'm listening to grandiose symphonic. But it's awesome awesome awesome. more awesome than just now. grandiose stuff ftw. yay for my obsession with grand, stately, nice-looknig stuff.

Ahh.... i am saddled with a lot of problems, as always. but....music at night....fine...call me emo. whats the deal of listening to music at night? So what if the moon and the sky look nice? Yeah, that's right. nature ftw. but not rainforests and mud. Is disgusting.

Anyway, the night sky is beautiful. Serenade away, sing a song, for the moon looks really really nice.

World Lit and Anime Adaptations: the Connection

random post on new game fate unlimited codes. i managed to get a hold of it. Hmm, nothing much to say, doesnt matter much except for Rider, haha!



Rider a.k.a. Medusa ftw. Let new age pop culture leave Medusa as a beauty rather than beast. Interesting way of making her the victim of fate.



But, also interesting character to note here, is Caster, or Medea. I like the way she's potrayed. Elven facial features? That contributes to the character being of demi-goddess heritage, haha. The elevation of the woman Medea over the puny Jason, who couldn't do shit on the Argo trip. That's Euripedes' Medea. One of 3 Ancient Hellenistic Feminist Characters. Atalanta, Medusa, Medea. Ahh, World Lit here we come....

75 posts

This blog is getting to be rather long..... The longest so far cuz the rest lasted 2 months, or 4 months, tops? But i'm blocked. So, the blogs were like my life story? Its like a novel, only weirder. Where's the story's fun, if its all been the same for the last 1.5 years? haha. epic jokes. more epic jokes.

freakshow

Here i was, listening to music to chase away the boredom of bio. *shudders*
I hit shuffle, and by the end of that song, i was like: Holy S**t. damn zun.

Back to topic, eh, i am freaked out. *shudders*. i regret those deviant ambitions i made,what with playing God and stuff. argh. its freaky now that i think about it. a good dosage of medicine for crap way in the months of late 2008. *shudders some more*

no more poison, no more doctors, no more medicine, no more clowns, no more wicked instruments, no more wierd accents. no more. get out, freak.

research

I did some research and random reading up. It did turn out some interesting stuff to me regarding the nature of many things indeed. but enough with the kurotsuchi stuff. after all, research and science stuff scares the living hell out of me. Like freaking gestapo knocking on your door. or kempetai. whatever. having all that secret polices and spy networks scares me.



This music relates to reminiscence. Try listening to it at the beach in the wee hours of 4 - 6 am in the morning, it will sound even sweeter. And, it seems i listen to this song a lot, cos it do talk to me heart a lot. or do i listen to it way too much? This is after all nostalagia-inducing music.

Ooh blessed random!

Wiston Churchill was wary of Hitler before the Second World War. What did World War 2 do to the world? Well.... leave it up to history students. What if Winston Churchill got Hitler taken down before? A happy ending maybe , an alternate history thing, some new fad i just got into. Eh, i'd like to try.

taking out the trash

i am back from wow. i am, finally clean. no more nightmare toilets. hahahaha.

How'd it go? How'd i get thru it? I spent most of the time alone in thought. consider acting on the advice of friends. maybe ppl do have a point.

I came home 12 hours after i landed. Woot. I need to catch up, take out the trash. Taking out the trash, sounds cool. taking out the trash reminded me, why i needed to get on back to singapore. taking out the trash,taking out the trash,taking out the trash,taking out the trash,taking out the trash,taking out the trash,taking out the trash,taking out the trash,taking out the trash,taking out the trash,taking out the trash,taking out the trash,taking out the trash,taking out the trash,taking out the trash,taking out the trash,taking out the trash,taking out the trash,taking out the trash,taking out the trash,taking out the trash,taking out the trash. haiiiya banzai.

Got my character designs in mind already. This will be kick ass.