Eirei

Watching and watching. Seems to be all i can get around to doing. But i think i seen cool stuff lately, heh heh.

I jump to conclusion too early liao. I am wishing for the best, even if i was wrong.

Anyway..... This just in: Ghost Rider just got sexy.

And i like the cool Ghost Rider fanfiction, hehs.

For now, watch and wait. For Archer, and for the black rendition of the now-famous t-shirt.

Disillusion

Or so i found out, Things have changed.

I knew someone, who had made a difference in my life some time ago. Now the happiness that i so admired has been stripped forcibly from said person. I don't have much to say about this. As if I ever have anything to voice out. I am that kind of silent person. That happiness I used to see and admire, it is replaced with apathy it seems. Even in light of festivities. I feel sorry, yet feeling apathetic too. I want to enjoy and be happy. And that is what I shall do. I have to choose to blind myself to some negativities. I'll be fine though. In fact, better that way. Thats apathy for you. But it's for the better i guess. No more Heaven's feel in reality for me. Only Fate will be in my life. Heaven's feel is just for the game only. =D

yume ni mite ita ano hi no kage ni todokanai sakebi
asu no jibun ha nante egaite mo kienai negai ni nureru

kobore ochiru kakera wo tsukamu sono te de
yureru kokoro kakaete tobi konde ike yoru he

dareka wo ate ni shite mo motomeru mono ja nai no dakara
hontou no jibun ha koko ni irutte me wo tojite inaide

kaze ni makarete GARAKUTA jimita natsukashii egao
asu no jibun nara nante inotte mo toozakaru kotae ha kasumu

kogoesou na karada to hitohira no omoi
kuchihateru sono maeni tobi koete ike yoru wo

dareka wo ate ni shite mo motomeru mono ja nai no dakara
hontou no jibun ha koko ni irutte me wo tojite inaide

dare ka no tame ni ikite kono toki ga subete de ii deshou
misekake no jibun ha sotto sutete tada ari no mama de

Song is: This Illusion (Fate version)

Starting school

Starting school has sure done some stuff to me. I feel alone, or not. I re-established some ties with lower sec era classmates, so I have a clique for now. Well, as for guy to girl ratio, it is pretty bad. Till the new o level students come in, and for now including only the direct admission girls, the ratio is 30:1. How stupid this school is.... I did get to know some of them though. Nothing special, or nothing for me anymore,maybe. I must have lost something a long time ago...

I have a blood test this weekend also. I don't feel scared, cos why should I? Its blood, my blood. The same stuff i remember swallowing when injured. But in school I have been bored enough to write poems.

What do they know of the loner on the plain;
He was versed in book and toil and pain.
He meant no harm, he loved freedom 'stead;
To enjoy the winds in his face 'fore he went to bed.
Surely he was human after'all, not a creature;
For feelings had he ere he'd mature.
And for thrill as all men seek to grasp;
Out went he into the world with reins in clasp.
And found he beauty beyond all reasons known.
There is never justice of any renown.
For battle always follows the silent one,
The work of steel and cunning is never done.
And opponents will plague him ever long.
To the south and west and north they belong.
So blood is shed and flesh is torn.
Such is the fate of many people born.
As said once things were never fair.
Fair was she, yes, silk is her hair.
Know that he never did win enough.
For for some people, Fate is tough.
And so he retreated to Mongolia of which none knows in excess,
To Mongolia where a Gorgon reigns as princess.
Hope will one day come to the weary one day.
Amen, for in The Lord's name we pray.