Disillusion

Or so i found out, Things have changed.

I knew someone, who had made a difference in my life some time ago. Now the happiness that i so admired has been stripped forcibly from said person. I don't have much to say about this. As if I ever have anything to voice out. I am that kind of silent person. That happiness I used to see and admire, it is replaced with apathy it seems. Even in light of festivities. I feel sorry, yet feeling apathetic too. I want to enjoy and be happy. And that is what I shall do. I have to choose to blind myself to some negativities. I'll be fine though. In fact, better that way. Thats apathy for you. But it's for the better i guess. No more Heaven's feel in reality for me. Only Fate will be in my life. Heaven's feel is just for the game only. =D

yume ni mite ita ano hi no kage ni todokanai sakebi
asu no jibun ha nante egaite mo kienai negai ni nureru

kobore ochiru kakera wo tsukamu sono te de
yureru kokoro kakaete tobi konde ike yoru he

dareka wo ate ni shite mo motomeru mono ja nai no dakara
hontou no jibun ha koko ni irutte me wo tojite inaide

kaze ni makarete GARAKUTA jimita natsukashii egao
asu no jibun nara nante inotte mo toozakaru kotae ha kasumu

kogoesou na karada to hitohira no omoi
kuchihateru sono maeni tobi koete ike yoru wo

dareka wo ate ni shite mo motomeru mono ja nai no dakara
hontou no jibun ha koko ni irutte me wo tojite inaide

dare ka no tame ni ikite kono toki ga subete de ii deshou
misekake no jibun ha sotto sutete tada ari no mama de

Song is: This Illusion (Fate version)