Wishlist

So close to christmas, and i even forget to put wish list up. Really blur these days. well, working makes me busy you see.

Ok then, wishlist up:

1)Projection ability (Able to create things just by thinking about them)
2)A Servant
3)PS3
4)A chisakatana
5)the sky
6)A warhorse
7)Plastic surgery
8)iPod nano
9)A submarine with a lab on board
10)a collection box
11)White comic ink
12)A FSN poster
13)New pen tips

The Gorgon Breaker

I had, overall a very nice day yesterday. Went off a bit... unlucky i might say. But, i cheered up during lunch. And, i was eating taiyakis for lunch. As a friend once put it to me, taiyaki does cheer up your mood, esp when your down. Nothing so heartwarming as remembering that mum used to buy them for me often when i was young.

Then when i went to work the evening shift i had it rather easy for a dinner rush shift. Oh yea! The ace in the hole when i got back, seeing the sentinel on top of the cpu. Yes, Medusa, silently waiting for my return. Ordered the figurine from the net, and i expected it to come like around Christmas. Nice to see that she came in early.



And i have been refreshed. Cleared. The blindfold is off me now. I know who has been tormenting me since i was young and naive. Thanks, for telling me! Cultures, and humans, we all define ourselves by conflict. And a vengeful conflict is here. I shall live for revenge now, of course, i have other reasons to live for. Like mangaka work and biology. Pressing on now. The Breaker has broken my leash.

Dreams. Like the Godfather.

Oh yes. Havent been blogging lately. And i attribute it to lack of inspiration, or lack of notable events. And since i lack real-life events, i shall use - my dreams.

Yes. I noticed that, for 6 days straight, Medusa appeared in my dreams. Not the typical portrayal of Medusa. New-age prefers her to be what original Greek myth had intended for her to be, the Gorgon beauty. We all have been watching too much Clash of the Titans. Its inaccurate. More or less, i like the way Medusa is potrayed in Fate/stay night. But its a tragic story for Medusa-san. Well, last night i had a rather eventful dream. Here it goes, all summed up for you:

I was intending to kill some vile mobsters. And guess what? They were the lowest of the gangsters. the scum of organised crime. The damn loan sharks. I was gonna ambush a bunch of them, who were like gonna do bad stuff to one dear friend. Thats precisely WHY THEY ARE SCUMS. Thats WHY I SHOULD SHOOT THEIR DAMN FRICKEN HEADS WITH A 357 MAGNUM REVOLVER! Alas, alas. I chickened out. Dint get into a shootout with them. My gun wasnt big enough.... There were 8 of them, so i didnt go ahead with the violent tactic. I did manage to get my friend out of their way, to safety. Then i threw myself at the boss' feet I pleaded and grovelled with their boss. A disgusting fat hairy old man. Who is balding. So i pleaded and grovelled with him. He decided to spare us, after i tried to get loopholes to save my friend. Strangely, they worked. Well, then i warped back home, wierdly it seems, then i saw Medusa in my house. She didnt do much, she didnt petrify me or statueify me. Yup, then i went online shopping to buy figurines.

End of dream.

There was a better way the dream could have turned out. If only Medusa had come to fight the ah longs. Then they would be pierced painfully by her chain-stakes or frozen in stone. Or Medusa would mount up on her Pegasus mount and kill the sharks Cool, yeah. The true happy ending. Been watching Fate/stay night too much. Will carry on watching it. Hahaha

What is....

It then appears that I am indeed thrown out into the world with eyes wide open and desperate, perhaps insane. Its freezing. Out there. And its freezing here. I just feel cold. It must be the dreams. The dreams, returning to plague me again. Hahas, but one funny bit. Saw one of my friends dating Nagato Yuki of Haruhi fame.

It seems, that humans define their existence throught misery and suffering. And maybe that is true for most. Or of a few who can somehow define their existence through happiness. As if in a utopia.

I used to think i was very free. Freer than some other specific persons. And it actually comes to lght that I am as much a prisoner as the next guy. I have such a lousy host body. Does it have to matter?

Idiom(t)

I'd like to quote an idiom. An idiot, qouting an idiom, geddit? lame....i know i am so very lame.

But since i was kinda of an idiot, then maybe i should qoute it after all. Hence leaving it shrouded to the rest. Hopefully it wont hurt anyone. I do hope i can get a day off this weekend. I just wanna relax. Just wanna see if i can learn anything. Big things to do i think. Maybe it will de-idiotify me. Yes. That last one, very very important. Maybe.

From friend to friend;
and enemy to enemy;
but naught means all that above.
Do come back and stay the same.

A random rant

You know, maybe... Never mind. Ya somethings might be true. After all, its human nature. Thus do people grow. Very differently from each other. Or that i am again being an ungrateful idiot or a real selfish ass.

Well, still cant stop things from unfurling. cos God only can. But He wont cos He has great things by which to propser like, everybody. Even if small litttle bugs and thingies in life do annoy/attack us. Still getting my kicks in life anyway.

I'd like a rifle and bullets. Then can camp on a roof and shoot evil criminals like ah longs and robbers and kidnappers and pedophiles. oh, too much vigilante-ness? Sorry folks! See ya on my next post. Yaya. Bye!

Little or none

My life, when i look back at it, is just full of regrets. Or things that I regret over. maybe there is still time. Yeah. Of course, i hope so. Hope. Just the carrot dangling in front of the pack mule to keep it going.

Anyway... I do have stuff to do this holidays. Hoping to enjoy myself. And maybe time to make amends maybe? Im getting frantic now. Hahahas.

Little - Big

That little sliver of fear comes. There are those who choose to ignore such things. Then that little sliver grows into a big sliver. Not funny, i guess. What should i do? Stop lying to myself and do something alr? Maybe im just being an idiot. A blinded idiot.

Time to... i dunno... give thanks?

Killing flaws

That icy hand reaches again. And it hits the target. Bullseye. Bullseye......

I am once more broken. I am once more thrown wide-eyed and desperate into the cold world. Cant trust some people. And some, i can trust after all. But in the end, only up to myself entirely. Only me to accept responsibility for my actions and fate. I have no time to question my fate, it seems. Time exists only for me to attempt climbing up and healing myself. And my flaws. Will. Be. the end of me.

Traitor with a Cause

"The blossoms of the cherry tree already fall like snow. What more can the wind ask of them?" - Ohshikouchi no Mitsune

I continue life. Bearing witness to injustice. Numerous things can be found in the souls of people. The desire to dominate, the desire to exact revenge. In the last 2 weeks, i have seen the worst that some people can offer. I know this - I am a traitor. To them who mercilessly persecute, and i must help further injustice and jealousy? Never. I cut off this new blog for a purpose.

My life is not your weapon of hatred. My sick obession with honour persists. So does the dueling habit and the fencing skill. No, i am not a samurai. Lols. But i will keep my promises even with sharp metallic implements.